I'm a sinning Christian

I’m an employee, a student, a part-time boyfriend

I’m confused and enlightened 

I’m a jumble of feelings

I’m sadly happy 

I’m strong, but weak in the Lord

I’m kind, and will share my thoughts honestly

Some people think that’s mean

The fantasy:

I want to be a universe explorer, fly in eternity

I want to soak myself in a bathtub,

or in a swimming pool, in a lake for hours

I want to see everything in one color, like orange or blue

I want to know how it feels to be invisible,

or how if feels when I know people but me are invisible

The dilemma:

Our body, it's so limited, so fragile

The answers:

Quit trying, quit forcing

Time to sit down

Stay still, it's all in heart

Eyes are closed and the world is open. God is here

Eyes are open, the world is closed. God is there